Expecting after Infertility

Our Journey To conception

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I don’t even know anymore. I need to call my ob tomorrow. I feel like I’m not allowed to be excited anymore and today has been a total downer. :(

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MFM appointment wasn’t terrific. Baby is fine, the doctor was a, for better name, inconsiderate heartless asshole without any bedside manner. I’m going to be calling my ob tomorrow and complaining. I went in simply for a level 2 ultrasound to rule out T13/18 and left with a laundry list of things I’m doing wrong or reasons why my baby is going to be stillborn. I wish I was exaggerating. We both feel like we were blindsided and weren’t under the impression I was needing to be followed by an MFM. Needless to say, if I do it won’t be by this quack.

/grumble

Baby is measuring about a week ahead. His legs arms are measuring 2 weeks ahead which isn’t surprising given my husband and I are both over 6’ and were both 23+ inches at birth. :) Oh. He is most definitely still a boy ;)

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My appointment this morning went well. He gave me an unexpected ultrasound which I’m not complaining about. It makes me feel better going into the anatomy scan tomorrow. He said everything looked good. Baby boy is measuring 6 days ahead of my edd, so 19+2. At my NT scan at exactly 12 weeks he was measuring 3 days ahead so we’ve gained another 3 days. He was waving and moving his head around this morning. My placenta is low, which may explain the bleeding I woke up to last Monday. It’s not covering my cervix but he said it’s just something to watch, not worry about yet. There is a normal amount of fluid, too, which is good. I’m excited now about my scan and consult tomorrow with the MFM. 

And YAY I’m back to monthly visits. I’ve been 4 times in the past about 3 weeks and I’m so glad to be back to monthly visits. I’m sure my work is glad I’m back to monthly visits, too. :) 

How Far Along: 18 weeks 3 days

Weight Gain: +1 total (not positive, it really fluctuates week to week. Last monday at the dr I was back down to -1 and this week I’m up 2. Who knows 

Maternity Clothes: Yes for pants. Not always wearing the tops yet. I’m going to need to soon just to cover up the belly panel on the pants. 

Sleep: It’s hit or miss. 

Pregnancy Perk: I’m pregnant, and the bump is starting! 

Embarrassing Pregnant Moment: None

Baby Purchases this week: Phew! We bought nursery furniture last weekend. This past weekend I bought more clothes :) If baby boy isn’t a boy we are in trouble. 

Best moment regarding baby this week: Seeing him this morning :) 

Gender: Boy

Movement: Occasional light kicks. They are picking up in frequency though! 

Food Cravings: Steak, smoothies, carbs.

Food Aversions: Chicken breast. I can eat chicken legs just fine.

How’s Mama? Tired! 

What I am looking forward to: Anatomy scan tomorrow :D 

Our Baby in Veggie/Fruit Terms: sweet potato

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Doctor appointment week.

Ob tomorrow morning for follow up on the bleeding I had last week and blood pressure issues. Hoping I can go back to once a month appointments because every week is getting really really old.

MFM consult / anatomy scan / check for T13/18 markers on Tuesday. And confirm baby boy is still a boy. I’m terrified we are going to find T13/18 markers despite the DNA blood test being clear. Or that something will be wrong.

Good news is I can feel my uterus and it’s right where it should be for 18 weeks. Positive thoughts. Positive thoughts.

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My kitchen thermometer “broke.” Aka the last time it was used, my husband was cooking, and it happens to have gotten partially melted on the back. It kept throwing “high heat” despite being in cold chicken. Anyhow, it’s an old pampered chef one that I’ve had for 7 years plus the probably 5-7 years my mom had it. I just don’t know how to bake meat without it! It makes baking chicken foolproof. I feel like I’ve lost my best friend!

It’s going to be a gamble ordering a new one. They have not so stellar reviews across the board unfortunately. Anyone work for pampered chef? Do they even still make them?

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cunt-mom:

brainstatic:

This is the English word I want to get tattooed on my wrist. It means “to keep breathing even though the water rises all around you.” English is such a mystical exotic language. They can fit so much meaning into so small a word.

Did you mean self-contained underwater breathing apparatus?

cunt-mom:

brainstatic:

This is the English word I want to get tattooed on my wrist. It means “to keep breathing even though the water rises all around you.” English is such a mystical exotic language. They can fit so much meaning into so small a word.

Did you mean self-contained underwater breathing apparatus?

(via sly-mcp)

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Happy Happy 29th Birthday to my husband and happy 2nd wedding anniversary to us!

We enjoyed our fondue dinner, talked about the pits and peaks of year #2, and toasted to year #3 (he had champagne, I had ginger ale!).

With angel baby boy’s due date quickly approaching, we officially named the baby we lost. We both had the same name suggestion and thought the other wouldn’t like it. That made me a bit emotional, like it was meant to be. Neither of us had ever brought up the name before. One month exactly until our angel’s due date.

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Today was really productive! As a result I am exhausted. My husband and I went to two stores looking at nursery furniture yesterday, and one more this morning. We went back and ordered nursery furniture this afternoon after we made our choice! I can’t believe it takes 10-14 weeks to get in. I thought we were looking way too early but apparently not.

I finally found some maternity jeans that are (just barely) long enough! I ended up buying 3 pairs of jeans and a pair of capris, and 3 shirts. Somehow the shirts rang up as $0.00. We aren’t sure how it happened but I’m definitely not complaining. I loathe stripes but apparently that’s the only thing they make maternity shirts with. Surprisingly they don’t look horrible (thankfully).

We took our lab to the pool tonight for the pool “pawty” and she had fun swimming. We went to dinner with the in laws and my husbands brother and his family. Ended the night with a pumpkin pie blizzard. Ready for bed! :)